Differences Collide
I’m different than everyone really
I’ve never met someone who sees things the way I do
It gets lonely I suppose
Being different isn’t a bad thing
Not always
But sometimes being different
Gets you hurt
Or even killed
I’m not lonely I would say
Just..
Suffering
Constantly
Every second
Everyday
No matter how much I smile or laugh
I’m always suffering
And that’s okay
Because it’s the only thing I’ve ever really known
I don’t think I’m the only one going through this
It seems that way
But it’s not
And that in itself
Makes the whole thing even worse
I’m scared of everything
And yet nothing at all
Because I’m afraid of this suffering
But I’m not afraid of death
Sometimes
The end isn’t what anyone wants
It just simply is
It is what it is
And nobody can stop it
Or help it
It just
Is
And to me
That’s okay
No matter how this ends
Because I’ll either keep suffering
Or I’ll be dead
And I’m okay with both
I’m okay with suffering
I’m okay with death
And that alone
Terrifies me to the maximum
It chills me
Straight through to my bones
To my core
Because I feel all
Yet I feel nothing at all
(2014)
