The Autumn Sky
The skies call to me
Like a breath of fresh air
My scars all burn
And people just stare
I look to the ground
When I am in sight
I try to run
I try to hide
When I should be looking up at my autumn sky
It burns above
So far from me
But when I’m alone
I cant help but reach
Reach to the stars
Reach to the clouds
I’m absorbed in the light
I’m absorbed in the sounds
I can feel it in my hands
In the tips of my fingers
It makes me calm
It makes me shiver
The universe around me is so complex
I can’t wrap my mind around it
I’m awaiting a day when ill meet someone
And our hands and fingers just seem to fit
I will hold them so close
So dear to my heart
I will never leave them
We will never part
With them I can share
My universe, my sky
My hopes and dreams
My whirlwind of a mind
I will tell them how I hurt
How I bled, how I tried
How I was left behind in the dirt
How I tried to hide
I will expose my inner self
The one that’s chained
I will release that part of me
Free from the shame
I want to go up to the sky
Just to fall back down
So I can know what it feels like to fly
So I can know what it feels like to drown
Take me to the lowest place
Let me look up at my sky
Let me ask all of my questions
Let me wonder why
Why do I try so hard for those who dont for me
Why am I alive and why do I see
Only heartache and grief
Why am I in so much pain
Why does everyone I love leave
I am tired of shoulder shrugs and hugs goodbye
It’s all so hard for me to believe
I am terribly lonely and empty
I am anything but full
Just give me a chance
Our life won’t be dull
I look to my sky
Always there up above
I wish I was born a butterfly
I wish I was born a dove
Someday maybe I’ll have someone real
and I can be real myself
I’ll be released from this pain
I’ll be released from my hell
I look up and try to breathe
I look up and try to be alright
For now, it’s just me
me, and my autumn sky
