What I’ve Buried
I am a shallow grave
A carved out pit of despair
Clawed out by hand
Hands bleeding and bare
I have dug this hole myself
I have lived only to die
I only hold what I’ve ever held
And I have dirt in my eyes
Sometimes I worry of a cave in
A sudden collapse
I know it’s coming soon
The moment I shall breathe my last
I shall gasp
As this grave swallows me up
I am what I’ve buried
What I have buried is my love
It cannot be undone
It can only covered
Below, I will sink
And above, you will hover
Staring blankly with no remorse
I am my own disease
My skin has cracked and my voice is horse
I will follow the course
The path placed before me
One that leads to nothing
One that leads only to debris
Filth, I am filth
Filthy as can be
My soul is just as stained
As your dirty sheets
I am being modest
I am being cheap
But my soul is heavy
And my blood will seep
Into this ground
Into this grave
I am anything but holy
I am anything but saved
I am deranged
And I am strange
We were once one
Now we are two, just the same
I cannot maintain
I cannot counteract
This whirlwind of pain that surrounds me
Keeps going out of whack
I cannot track
My unstable behavior
I am in need of passion
I am in need of a savior
Pull me from this earth
Help me to breathe
Show me what I am worth
Tear me from this rubbled sea
I am far too weak
So help me please
This grave I am digging
Is getting way too deep
I should that keep
The one called faith
But I fear it’s too far
And I cannot escape
I am broken and bleeding
I have sunk like the setting sun
Don’t worry you’re not to blame
There was never anything anyone could’ve done
I am a shallow grave
I am a hollow pit
I am buried
While you dig and sift
Trying to find me amongst the dust
You do as you please
I’ll do what I must
I’m just aching for release
And as the walls close in
My body will shake and seize
As I inhale the fatal gravel
Maybe at long last I can find peace
