A broken heart
A hunk of a man, rich, nerdy
And more like Zac Afron.
That’s the type of man I thought
I needed until u walked right
Through the wall I built around my heart.
You were nothing like Zac but it
Didn’t matter coz your sight gave
Me a feeling that no other man can trigger.
The way you looked at me when I first saw you,
I swear I went to Antartica then
back to Africa in a flash.
It became soo cold then extremely hot.
It felt like a refreshing dive in a pool
When all my nose could smell was your cologne.
The way you walked and talked,
How you’d protect and respect me,
Mhhh 'sexy and manly too’
Those are the thoughts that tickled me every night.
You must have sprinkled some love potion,
Coz u owned a big portion of my heart.
You stood out nothing like all man I know!
Then suddenly one morning I woke
up, like a craving drug addict my
body shook non stop.
My eyes created their own water falls,
tears all over my face, body heavy, shoulders stiff,
It felt like the end of the world.
The silence was too loud, I swear
I could hear the sound of my heart
breaking into pieces.
How could you rob what made my heart so happy and thrilled?
How could you protect then neglect me without any warning?
I’ll randomly hear the sound of your
voice saying ‘Sthandwa sam!’
I’d have a smile that’s followed by a frown.
It finally sank in that you’ve left and there’s no hope you’ll be back.
I can’t believe the man who took me out’a my death bed
is the same man putting me back 2 it.
I can’t believe my reason to wanna live yesterday
is my reason to wanna die today.
Wanna know what’s strange?
Even though you’ve put a knife in my heart so deep,
I still want you in my life, I still think of all the beautiful things you’ve done,
all the priceless words you’ve shared with me.
I feel like a used teabag, dull, tasteless and all drained in a sink drain somewhere.
If all you wanted was to drive me crazy then well done,
you’ve succeeded and there’s no doubt you’re experience coz you did it like a pro.
What happened to the "babe nzak’tshata 1 day"?
What happened to us living an a palace somewhere in france?
Was that just a secret code to unlock the gates I’ve put up around my heart?
You’re my weakness right now but not for long!
You don’t define me and definitely don’t own me.
Grugde? Too heavy
Revenge? That’s expected
Hate? Nah too evil
I’ll let kamar deal with you.
You are best and worst man I’ve ever met,
I hate you with passion and I hope
you’re happy and proud,
if not already on your next mission with another ‘Sthandwa!’
(2015)
