Pain
Pain I know, pain I felt
It seemed endless and
I thought it’ll never end.
Pain my worst enemy yet
My blessing in disguise!
I had headaches, cramps and
All those 2 seconds stubs in my
Stomach but nothing compares
To the heartaches I experienced,
Those hard to tolerate emotional
Pains.
It seemed the world was ending
Sometimes ending my life felt like
The only option.
I prayed and prayed although my
Faith was absent,
I faked a smile even though my
Heart was giving up on me.
I heard people tell me it’ll end soon
But that to me was just a language
I hardly understood.
I sometimes begged myself to
Become strong, just for the sake
of proving the person responsible
For my heartache.
I pleaded my heart to collect itself
And stop whining coz anyway it got itself into this mess the first place.
My shoulders weighed pain,
Heartache where the heck are you
coming from?
Oh its all my expectations and refusing
To accept the rejection and disappointments.
One day, the day that changed my life,
I woke up feeling lighter because
I accepted, forgave and made a choice to look forward without losing the memory of what happened.
Pain motivated me to better myself,
It strengthened me and taught me
Lessons no book would have taught me.
I vowed to be responsible for my happiness,
I promised to let no one buy shares in my 'Make Sine Happy’ company.
I then began a new like,
A joyful, hopeful and positive life and
I think that attracted the people from my past,
The people who were partly responsible
for my pain.
Its funny how people kick you down
And wish you never get back up,
Its funny how they think you’ll never make it without them but be the first
To beg for a place in your life when you finally get up and become better than you were before they tried to destroy you!
The best feeling is rejecting the people you thought you’ll never be able to live without with a big smile on your face, with that 'I don’t need you bish’ tone and that evil yet sweet smile
Pain is one of the steps in the process of building you to become stronger, wiser and more grown up:)
Never regret it buddy
#PainLaterBecomesYourBestFriend
(2015)
