I don’t know
if you read these things
But if you do
I’ll take your silence
as a

I didn’t know what it was like to
then you showed me what it was lik
I didn’t know what it was like to
Then you came along and accepted m
I didn’t know I could feel so dee

The million incandescent bulbs
that line Gibbs St
from Barrett Place to Main
go out just after midnight. Stragg
smokers sit or stand in the alley

Youth is wasted
Proving
you are a man
Seniority is wasted
Lementing lost youth

Letting go
Is not a choice
That I can just make
There are no simple steps
I can mechanically perform

I want to hate you
I want to blame you
For all the pain
In my heart
I want to hate you

A powerful master
Frequently cloaked
Obscured by half truths
Demands masked as duty
Though there is nothing lovely in

How was it possible?
Why on earth
Did it never happen
Before?
How did you change

I want you
Out of my head
Out of my heart
I want your memory
To leave me be

You drew me too deep
inside.Only
to cast me
away.
Playing

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World Divided
I sit here alone
waiting on the edge
harsh reality

Does it really matter
Whose fault it was
What’s been done
Can’t be undone
Anyways

You are a pain I can’t put out of
You are an ache I can’t cease to
The momentary joy worth limitless
Knowing the pain that was before m
I chose to embrace that momentary

In the street.
Pensive glares pregnant
with meaning. Imagined
Memories. Greetings between
Former lovers wrenched

Little I can do
Now that I have injured you
I must disgust you

I’m not sure whether I love or ha
The me I am because of you
You reminded me
How good it felt
To feel without reserve

She was never mine
I was never her’s
Neither loved as a possession
Both possessed
By the love we shared

Our love cost you dear
It cost you all
A price I would have willingly pa
Though that cost
Sadly landed on you

Who am I now?
I’m not the man I was before
You’ve changed something
Done something big
You’ve opened up a door

For an instant
I touched it
Greatness was upon me
I wonder
Do you know it?

Here comes the rain
To wash away
All the things the could have been
Here comes the rain ( again)
A cleansing flood

The battle rages on
Leaves me weary
Restless and weak
But at
This moment

Life is right judgement
Wisdom divides great from small
Wrongness has no life

This is where I am
Though I fail to treasure it
I am still right here

Are you the person I met?
The person I fell in love with?
Were you really just someone else;
Trying to be what you thought I w
Are you anyone?

I broke something beautiful
I had prior commitments
I was not free
to live out
that fantasy

Spent my whole life
In a war zone
Where everyman
proves his metal
by showing

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I’m on to something new
Just trying to get over you
What in the world am I thinking?
Was it really that much?

Self Determination
It’s never free
There is always a cost
Self determination
Requires

All the spaces between.
All the things left
unsaid.
They are like the air
packed into a vanilla milkshake

I have been proud
I have considered myself wise
I have thought that I was
Far above
The failures of others

I thought I was the adult
I had the years
that is without question
But experience and wisdom
Those were yours

REST! REST! REST!
It is finished
he has said
put no faith
in your own hands

I know
That you still feel
The same as I do
I know
That it can only

Staring down
Into my own
Oblivion
Self destruction
Impossible to escape

The two of them sat
face to face by the banks
of the narrow stream
smoking cigarettes, throwing stone
and dismantling