I don’t know
if you read these things
But if you do
I’ll take your silence
as a

Life is right judgement
Wisdom divides great from small
Wrongness has no life

You’re still
My favorite person
A thing
Impervious to change
Your memory

I’m not sure whether I love or ha
The me I am because of you
You reminded me
How good it felt
To feel without reserve

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World Divided
I sit here alone
waiting on the edge
harsh reality

Driven too long with out coolant
With out lubricant, my wife
Blew the head gasket on the
old Buick century.
Now lifeless on the flatbed. Wait

Never again
Will I be the means
Used to deal my love
an injury
Never again

Self Determination
It’s never free
There is always a cost
Self determination
Requires

Take care
In how you engage
the battle of
who can care less.
though it may

I want you
Out of my head
Out of my heart
I want your memory
To leave me be

I have been proud
I have considered myself wise
I have thought that I was
Far above
The failures of others

There was a day.
it was in August
we visited your mother
in the hospital. Afterwards we wen
to a beach side burger joint.

The way to a man’s heart
Is through his stomach
Or so the saying goes
But things are seldom
So simple as that

The cherry red tip
of ash falls from her
cigarette to make love
with a dry autumn leaf
and set the forest ablaze.

It has never changed
My heart’s inclination.
I am still drawn to you.
Having known you
I cannot see you

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I’m on to something new
Just trying to get over you
What in the world am I thinking?
Was it really that much?

When I got over the hill
the girls hooted
and I skated down the fun side
of the arched bridge
over the river. Carving hard

I thought I was the adult
I had the years
that is without question
But experience and wisdom
Those were yours

Why won’t it go away
This feeling of emptiness
That you left in your wake
I keep hoping I will get over you
It took so little to ensnare you

I didn’t know what it was like to
then you showed me what it was lik
I didn’t know what it was like to
Then you came along and accepted m
I didn’t know I could feel so dee

I know
That you still feel
The same as I do
I know
That it can only

There’s a hollow place
Where your heart belongs
Its vacuous emptiness
Drains all compassion
Consumes without satiation

Passions pit
perfervid. Smoking cinders,
and coals endure petulantly
past their prime.
Blisters and puss

All the spaces between.
All the things left
unsaid.
They are like the air
packed into a vanilla milkshake

Can you
Unravel the lies
You tell yourself
To make it through
Your uneasy

Letting go
Is not a choice
That I can just make
There are no simple steps
I can mechanically perform

I want to hate you
I want to blame you
For all the pain
In my heart
I want to hate you

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It is a myth
When they say
“The pieces you give away
You never get back”

To have kept you
Would have
cost me
Nothing
To have lost you

Are you the person I met?
The person I fell in love with?
Were you really just someone else;
Trying to be what you thought I w
Are you anyone?

REST! REST! REST!
It is finished
he has said
put no faith
in your own hands

Here comes the rain
To wash away
All the things the could have been
Here comes the rain ( again)
A cleansing flood

Staring down
Into my own
Oblivion
Self destruction
Impossible to escape

I broke something beautiful
I had prior commitments
I was not free
to live out
that fantasy

I can no longer trust my mind
not to betray me, and devour me
To bury me with thoughts of insecu
Was it love
was it something else

If anyone but you
Had told me not to talk to you
They would never have succeeded
I let you go
Because you asked me to.