Caffeinated Nonsense
You see, I didn’t have feelings for you.
I wanted us to just be friends
And then you kissed me and somehow
It made me even more sure that it wasn’t right,
I just wanted to be on my own
No intention to keep this going
But then we decided friends with benefits was the solution
And I agreed, and disagreed and agreed and disagreed
And agreed again
And then we finally agreed, together
You know, did the sex part of the friends with benefits thing
And well, it was the kind of good that makes you just forget about everything else for awhile.
But then, we had this sort of connection
No not THAT kind of connection—
Okay yeah that happened but that was before—
But the one where you laugh and tell jokes
And rally back and forth and back and forth
And have a great time together and
Forget about everything else and
Just want to stay forever.
Something clicked, and maybe it was the bad date I went on
Or maybe it was way too much caffeine—
And then you kissed me again
And I just never wanted to stop kissing you
I could have stayed there probably forever
And just be super content because
Everything else got quiet and that’s all I could think about
Was that kiss, oh man, that kiss.
It was the kind of kiss you don’t forget
The kind that I think about the entire way home
And still even hours later I can’t get out of my head.
I can’t really get you out of my head either
Oh no, do I have feelings for you now?
Oh no I don’t know what to do or what to say or
Oh no I definitely didn’t plan for this to happen
But oh no this is happening really fast and
Maybe it’s just because I’m thinking too fast
So I should wait for the caffeine to wear because I’m so so sensitive—
Maybe that’s the problem, I’m sensitive;
I think too hard and love too fast and trust too much
Because I’ve got such a complex thought process
Because maybe I might like you just a lot more than I thought I would
But it doesn’t change the situation that we’re in right now
That what you want, I’m not yet able to give to you
Because I’m fragile and I’m crazy, and I can’t really be trusted
With the safety of something as important as your heart yet
But I want this
In all the caffeinated nonsense that only sounds like nonsense because
It’s happening way too fast for me to comprehend but really
It’s more like chaotic honesty because
It's the real, nothing held back, honest-to-God truth
That I want you
