I Disconnect
All my fears bubble, burn and scorn their way to the surface
I hide my face
Like I can even escape
I slow my pace
Aware that I’ve lost awareness
Scared and scarred
Hoping the light will catch up
It’s all used up
Everything tainted
Moment after longest moment
The same pangs recycled without mercy
I tell myself logical little lies
Until I become numb
Who am I..?
Tucking myself away in dark and daunting corners
Losing myself. Losing control.
I am a loser. I am lost.
I make myself as small as possible
Hoping my problems will follow suit
Maybe I can shrink until I cease to exist
Here I am safe.
I disconnect.
(2013)
