Lingering thoughts Sometimes overwhelm me I can’t even seem to Close my eyes Without seeing you

Devastating is the realization That I cannot simply fly away To a place where skies are not gre… Where there is an easier way Of getting through another day

I am guilty Of wanting too much Out of life Of wanting it all Of wanting what I can’t have

Sometimes I really wonder What the point is Of socialization I don’t feel comfortable Socializing

It’s hard to explain The sudden change That I feel when the rain Soaks through Only if you knew

If only it Were as easy As it is for everyone else Nobody is Talking to me

Dashed like salt Shaken from the shaker Sprinkled as a spice What did they say? Sugar and spice?

I find it hard not To just Run right over to You Not caring what

Stars fall To the ground 'Round your feet Universes Collapse

Despite the lies I tell myself I know the truth Will always haunt me Like unsolved murders I lay awake thinking

I care too much About people I barely know About people I’ve never met About people I will never forget I used to think

Squeeze me tighter than tight Quietly seeking shelter Unlike the many nights I dreamed.… Each and every night Ending up the same way

I still want everything To be perfect When nothing Can be perfect I keep wanting things

If you could see it in my eyes The subtle refusal Because it might not feel right to… Not at this moment Not at this point in time

Someone told me About Judy Garland; That she Was the first Celebrity