My House
You walk around like you own this place
Outside my door I can hear you pace
Every day I make sure my doors are locked
And come night time, I hear your proverbial knock
You break down the doors
You’re underneath these floor boards
You’re within these walls
I try to push you out to the hall,
Push you out of my house
I need some peace and quiet
You say you’re just visiting but I don’t buy it.
You used to live here in my heart
You would sleep in the bed of my soul
But it’s time for you to go because my head is full,
There is no space for anything but the immense amount of pain you gave me,
This is not your place to be.
Every night I battle in this hopeless fight,
You make me shiver with despair
Stop playing with my hair
Stop holding my hand
This isn’t your property, this isn’t your land.
You make me cold
Haven’t you been told?
I’m not yours anymore.
You dwell within my body,
You prance along my skin,
You swim through my veins,
You rest by my window pane,
You hangout in my bed,
You have some fun while you dance in my head.
But the music you dance to is alarming,
You think you’re so charming but you’re not.
This music is blaring,
Tearing apart my room,
Knocking things off my shelf.
It rips apart my ear drums
You say you’ll be leaving soon but I am not dumb.
You will be back tomorrow night,
And the next.
I do not get enough rest,
Unless you stay out,
But I doubt that you’ll be gone for long.
You’ll come back each time, you’ll stroll on in and make yourself at home.
You’ll never leave me alone.
I will always be able to feel you hiding between my bones.
Boomeranging off of the walls of my skull,
All of my sanity will begin to dissipate just like the smoke from the fire you lit.
Why can’t I just forget?
These walls are in flames,
And I am losing this game.
My body is collapsing and turning to ashes
You throw glasses to the ground, for me to walk on, leaving scratches and gashes beneath my feet.
This blood tells the story of my defeat.
You left me in with these walls caving in, I cannot move the debris off of me.
You make me feel powerless and ugly.
I am trapped and cannot move,
You prove to be stronger as I accept the fact that I am a goner.
