June 14th, 2023 Am I grasping at straws I've placed myself?
Hello my Darling, how are you? How was your day? What can I do? Hello my Love,
This hope A cold burning A flame made of shadow Fueled by need and fueled by desir… Goes out
To Love is to abandon All rational and logic To act out of character And find depth within yourself To love is to put your wants
Because you brighten my day Even when the sun’s shining When I’m feeling down & fret You’re my silver lining Your warmth is like a buffet
If you told me To lay down my arms I would raise my shields Yet I surrender If you warned me
What I do Was for you Now it’s me Found self love But I still
Adrift in the abyss Dappled with distant lights Imagination connects the dots To make sense of this predicament I was anchored on the satellite
As I step forward I look back for one last time I wish you all the best
The longer I wait for you The more I prolong this pain The longer you wait to speak The more distant I become The more I heal
What I mistook for your warmth I now realize was actually a freez… You found me, built me up Then destroyed me You claim to care about me
You were the light of my life So tell me why You decided to burn it to cinders And leave me in darkness
I cut this final cord. So why do I still feel bound? Oh, another cord.
It’s easy to tell someone, “Just move on”, When you weren’t the one In their shoes. It’s easy to tell someone,
My vision clouds with these tears Tears made from our memories Maybe one day the they will stop Or I won’t feel them anymore
It’s not the familiarity It’s not the loneliness It’s not the memories It’s not the safety It’s not the comfortability
