June 14th, 2023 Am I grasping at straws I've placed myself?
Do not mistake my silence, For absence. I will always be there for you. Always. But I must be here for myself,
My hands grow weaker This hold I will prolong My legs shake and quiver But still I’ll stand strong My mind is chaos
My self deprecation Are humbling jokes As to starve my ego Not a reflection of self hatred My sense of self
Long-lost souls unite, Tears of joy in heartfelt hugs, Reunion’s embrace.
What I do Was for you Now it’s me Found self love But I still
The World ended, not with a bang, but with a sniffle. a tear. a cracked voice. First came the Horseman of Silenc…
It would be easier If I could hate you If you had so utterly decimated me That I couldn’t stand again It would be easier
I drank you in Like a fish Gasping for water Little did I know You were a shark
This hope A cold burning A flame made of shadow Fueled by need and fueled by desir… Goes out
Do not assume these words of hurt Are directed at you I have bared to you my heart and s… Yet our words remained withheld Do not assume these words of pain
One day I hope your love Will reunite with mine Or so I tell myself because It won’t
Were your reasons true? Were they for me or for you? Was there really nothing we could… I wonder. Why was it easier to hide?
As the waves crash along the shore Which seems so far away, I ask myself; Why do I swim? Pushed from a ship
Adrift in the abyss Dappled with distant lights Imagination connects the dots To make sense of this predicament I was anchored on the satellite
As I step forward I look back for one last time I wish you all the best
