June 17th, 2023 Read it again. And again. And again.
One day I hope your love Will reunite with mine Or so I tell myself because It won’t
As I step forward I look back for one last time I wish you all the best
My self deprecation Are humbling jokes As to starve my ego Not a reflection of self hatred My sense of self
You were the light of my life So tell me why You decided to burn it to cinders And leave me in darkness
Were your reasons true? Were they for me or for you? Was there really nothing we could… I wonder. Why was it easier to hide?
Rest your head on my shoulder When you’re feeling tired Let me sing of your praises When you need to be inspired Bend my ear to your lips
It’s easy to tell someone, “Just move on”, When you weren’t the one In their shoes. It’s easy to tell someone,
I drank you in Like a fish Gasping for water Little did I know You were a shark
As the waves crash along the shore Which seems so far away, I ask myself; Why do I swim? Pushed from a ship
This hope A cold burning A flame made of shadow Fueled by need and fueled by desir… Goes out
Like a tower of crystal glasses My hope stacks higher Waiting to come crashing down And lacerate my heart below A thousand tiny shards
This bed is too big I have too much space These blankets are too much Engulfing me, but I still shiver I have too much food
Hello my Darling, how are you? How was your day? What can I do? Hello my Love,
I wish that these words No longer reflect my pain But my devotion
I pray you don’t find These words of pain from my heart I’m broken right now
