June 17th, 2023 Read it again. And again. And again.
What I do Was for you Now it’s me Found self love But I still
My self deprecation Are humbling jokes As to starve my ego Not a reflection of self hatred My sense of self
This bed is too big I have too much space These blankets are too much Engulfing me, but I still shiver I have too much food
The only fitting punishment The Gods could conspire To make us pay for our transgressions against the… You stole the stars from their sky
Do not assume these words of hurt Are directed at you I have bared to you my heart and s… Yet our words remained withheld Do not assume these words of pain
A sudden Good-Bye Is not a finality But a paused Hello
What I mistook for your warmth I now realize was actually a freez… You found me, built me up Then destroyed me You claim to care about me
People always say, “These feelings will fade away” Which ones, love or pain?
Like a tower of crystal glasses My hope stacks higher Waiting to come crashing down And lacerate my heart below A thousand tiny shards
Rain & sun Flowers bloom Spring has sprung Fading the gloom In summers heat
Rest your head on my shoulder When you’re feeling tired Let me sing of your praises When you need to be inspired Bend my ear to your lips
One day I hope your love Will reunite with mine Or so I tell myself because It won’t
To Love is to abandon All rational and logic To act out of character And find depth within yourself To love is to put your wants
You Your Your voice Echoes ghostly In the halls of my memories
I drank you in Like a fish Gasping for water Little did I know You were a shark
