Alone
Issues within
Maybe alone is what I am suppose to be. Everytime there’s a problem it’s always me. & why is that? The ways I act, all stems from my past that holds me back. But how do I fix it, my sanity I miss it, I go crazy in my mind cus everyday bad thoughts visit. How do I not allow my issues to affect the people around me? How do I not go as crazy as this is sounding? Who do I turn to to open up to and vent to? Who will really understand the things I have been through? Who’s really on my side? Am I blinded by my pride? Then I think about my past and I remember why I try. To be better then my parents. To better for my children. To be better for myself. To be better for my siblings. But I feel like I’m at rock bottom, because my insecurities and inner issues continue to blossom. Alone in my head dealing with these personal problems. No one to support me motivate and listen, but how could they if no lead way was given? Push everyone away in fear of being hurt, being stressed and rejected and left in the dirt. So I keep my heart safe, let my mind continue to race & deal with the consequences of what being alone brings.
To be continued ........
