Painful
Of course it hurts when your fighting for a person and they don’t fight back, it hurts when you make sacrifices, changes and all . But they don’t do the same in return but so called giving they all . When all the bullshit & inconsistency come as soon as you fall . So stuck between what ifs but hopes she changes tomorrow . How long will you wait? How much can you take? When the pain you always felt & the one you feel now relate . Whether you wrong or not your the one that always chase. What do you do when you feel used, manipulated, abused, humiliated, confused, only things that hurting you. & the person doesn’t fight, leave you crying late at night, thinking what you did wrong when all you did was treat her right . But you can’t change a person if they don’t wanna change they self, & you can’t blame somebody if they want somebody else . But can you blame them for lying and dragging you along? Telling you things you wanna hear although they know that shit is wrong . Don’t try to understand your view just flip the script and say it’s you & tell you if you wanna leave then go on do what you do . How you let go so easy? You barely want me don’t need me, that’s how I know I love you more but you don’t fucking believe me . Does she play because she think I won’t find out or care, or is because she know that I ain’t going nowhere . This love is deep but it’s one sided & it’s really not fair . Cus I always feel like somebody can compete or compare . Now if I’m suppose to be your one & your only . Why you entertaining people? Got me stressing and lonely, all upset acting phony but I ain’t do nothing to you . But when the tables turn its war if I do not comfort you . Ain’t that’s what couples should do? I mean a mutual thing. Expressed my past with you hoping that my future would change . Never expected you start playing these stupid lil games, 1:55am & I’m up thinking about you but I know your not doing the same.
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