WINNING THE RACE
I have been gone a long time, been out here all on my own
I’m far away from my home and I’m feeling tragically alone
I find I’m crying constantly cuz I’m so surrounded by defeat
Ain’t found what I need, but don’t frown every time I bleed!
I’m a survivor, I’ll never fall! You’re a liar! Ahead of y’all
I got fired and ain’t been called! I’m so tired of walkin’ tall
I will just crash here for awhile next to you and your smile
My new world’s in denial but your beauty drives me wild
These days I am searching for the path of least resistance
All I found were consequences, surrounded by tall fences
Now today I look back on all the shitty pain that I caused
I’m a rebel without a pause, the fuckin devil inside had lost
I wanna see mom and dad someday before they pass away
I’m stuck here in Minnesota and really didn’t wanna be late
I would hate to have them both die and I not be at their side
I’d never forgive myself at all and I’d probably end my life
If I were to confide in suicide, hide, and decide to up and die
My new mission would be wasted and life wouldn’t be right
I know my life has a purpose and I’m not gonna die tonight
I have to keep pressing on, I just have to put up this fight
I’ll always be a professional writer to express feelings inside
Instead of smashing shit to pieces, express myself in rhyme
I believe it’s a good venue to get out all of the fucking anger
This pain that I’m holding onto never helps me anyway here
Lay down here to sleep and dream about our next vacation
When I see you home again! I know I am gonna make it!
This cruel life could never hold me, not while I can stand
Commanded to live another day! I make my own demands!
A plan gone totally wrong, a task I chose to fully undertake
A bond of brotherly love, a bond that no human could break
I’ve seen the world beyond this world, I have seen my goals
Strong as an ox, I’ll rise up against this life and take control
I know this life is pretty stressful and I know I’m just a kid
But I’ve got a family of my own now and deal with this shit
I do it cuz I love 'em and that’s what true love is all about
Looking for truth and thinking before you open your mouth
When I awaken from the nightmare I’ll be in my safe place
With my family there to love me on the day I win the race!
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Adam Koss/ January 16, 2013
