Devil Outside
Someone save me, the heat is too insane
I’m stuck in a loop
Inside is dark and time is at a halt
My heart stops from the fall
And it’s all my fault
Evil dogs stare at my face as if it’s jerky
My light switch isn’t working
And I’m calling up death flirting
It’s 11:30
I go to my car to get some A/C
Maybe listen to some Jay-Z
My eyes are kinda hazy
Now I’m driving feeling lazy
I stop at White Castle because I got the cravings
I order two sliders with the mist and fries
When I see this fine girl sitting off to the side
I smile at her as not to seem nervous,
About the fact that my pants are jerking me over to talk
My mind yells STOP!
And at that moment it was dropped
So I continue to wait
“Order number 8!”
I say thanks and grab the bag
Smelling the fries I peek out my eye
And see the fine girl crying
Contemplate, Concentrate
Is it worth it?
Fuck! We made eye contact
I’m definitely nervous
This is the most on spot pressure,
Man don’t nobody deserve this.
I say “what’s it to lose?”
I got a pair of nuts I may as well use
I say “excuse me is everything ok?”
I’m apprehensive and my toes start twitching
I’m just trying to listen like when snitches get to snitching
She smiled and said “no I’m fine”
I laughed and said “That much I can see”
Hoping that she laughs it over
Knowing exactly what I mean
She did exactly that then asked my name
I told her Homer and she asked,
“Does that mean you have a smart brain?”
I reply, “Not really but I do,
Ok miss you know mine how about you?”
She said Ariel, I thought it was a miracle
God sent me an angel.
She asked, “what do you do,
Do you play for that team?
Because my favorite color’s green too”
I said I used to, but enough of that
I came over because I saw you crying
So she explains how her man
Be playing games, and
All niggas is the same
And she’s done with these fucking lames
As not to be offensive
I pretended that I cared
Because at that moment I knew it
She was a hoe and I hope
She doesn’t think she’s fooling.
Then she said “enough about me,
What about you? Do you have
Girl problems with these stupid hoes too?”
I told her not really
I stay away from all that,
I’m really bad at choosing
So I refrain from all the losing.
She said, “That’s a shame
Because you look like a winner to me,
I wish that I could have you speaking honestly,
So can I?”
My eyes lit up
The pervy smirk was going berserk
And staring at that sundress that’s see-through…
I was speechless.
She said come with me
I’ll give you a little preview
We walk to the women’s room
She blows me until my nuts swell,
Like a balloon then stops
Just to tease my cock as she
Lightly licks the tip.
She said she liked the taste
And hoped the prelude wasn’t a waste
Because her hot oven wants to roost
And roast my rock hard rooster into tender meat.
I’m thinking “Oh God please don’t wake me up”
We walk out of the restroom, look at the table
Guess our food grew wheels and zoomed
Who cares? I got a better meal coming soon
We get to her apartment
I start ripping off her garments
And I’m stumbling over the arm-rest of a chair
I stop and then quietly begin to stare
She said don’t worry her roommates weren’t there
She reattaches to my stick
Now I’m back stuck in her zone
After the dome and the doggy
And the Elvis, missionary
Super leg twist, 69, blowing my mind
And back to doggy ooooh she’s naughty.
I shot everything I could
When I hear a real glock get cocked and stop,
All movement besides my soul leaving the room
Now Ariel’s looking hysterical
Saying “you’re going to leave your wallet here”
As the steel is pressed against my ear
So I just leave with the L
Thinking this just can’t be for real
When outside her apartment this dude says
You wanna blow an L?
I told him “I ain’t got no bread
So I’ll have to pass on your offer”
He said he had too much green,
He didn’t need the money.
He said “It looks more like you need a buddy,
My name is Anauel, So are you well?”
I thought he talked funny
And that the situation was fishy enough
He said “I get it,
You just looked down on your luck”
I told him if I didn’t have the bad
Then I wouldn’t have any at all,
And if that tree you got plenty
Then let’s fire up the city.
We go on the roof
There’s a TV, couch, and food
Now things are starting to look up.
He lights one and before I know it
After five more and three hours later
I’m seeing 6 gargoyles,
My grade school crush wrapped in plastic
As he says he didn’t know
I did acid while off shrooms too.
Aw hell nah, now I’m tripping hard
He’s laughing KFC’s dipping sauce
Saying he coated the crab legs with cocaine
“That’s why they’re already cracked, Get it?”
And I’m slipping from here to limbo
Thinking there isn’t anything worth living for,
So should I just break my back?
Jumping off the roof onto the bug
Because I don’t care for Volkswagen
Now the Gargoyles are swarming
There’s a crazy storm approaching
And fire starts raining from the skies
My crush floats on a river of lava down despair drive
So I walk to the river side, trying to fight this high
I’m slowly coming down when I see a clown
Hop out a hooptie and slap my temple
I awake strapped to a chair
I feel my knee get hit with some wood
My cry of anger made sure those around understood
A man says “Calm down
I can get you out of this place,
All you gotta do is sing like a canary”
I told him my name wasn’t Barry but,
I see these bricks of White
I don’t fuck with them so I’ll tell you whatever
Alright?
He said “well you better tell me right
And I’m only asking once,
I need to know where my money is tonight
I asked who he thinks has it and maybe I can help
But I didn’t even know his name
He punched me with the buckle of his belt
He said he doesn’t like jokes or being lied to
But that’s why I told the truth, in hopes to get through
Over my chair flipped as a rag covered my face
He said he hated my race because we’re all the same
He said his name was Azrael
And Anauel owes him hella dough
Plus the keys so the situation is critical you see
Anauel used me as the mark,
The fall guy from the start
I knew I wouldn’t make it out this chair
Water flows through the rag as it fills my lungs
I know I’m done, because the ropes give way
I was drowning to stay alive
The puddle around me begins to rise
When they let me back up
I told him I had no clue
Then he pulled out bamboo shoots
He began to force them under my fingernails
After he pops a couple off I start to become distraught
His henchmen start cutting my cheeks
I beg for my life
No longer did I want to fight
So he gave me shock treatment to carry me through
After having an arm broken
Two black eyes swollen,
A missing baby toe, to go along with the shoes
Azrael starts to see that it’s true
They hit me over the head again
I wake up where I stood before it all happened
I limp to my car and was able to drive home
I needed my medical card from the crib.
As I pull up to the complex, I only see more distress
My apartment was set ablaze
I think “why me?” as I see Micah
He says to me mournfully
“Everyone inside died in every room”
I thought damn I wish He would’ve took me too
I begin to cry
Micah says “don’t worry,
There’s a reason you’re still alive”
III
(2014)
*Ariel – Angel of nature
*Anauel – Angel of prosperity
*Azrael – Angel of death
*Micah – Angel of the Divine Plan
