Expire, di Jen

Expire

I’m not a side dish,

I’m not a left—over,

you can’t put me away,

you can’t save me for later,

as with all things,

moments in life expire,

sometimes much too quickly,

so let’s focus,

on my rising chest,

so I can pull you in,

and find some rest.

#Expire #Jenay #Jenboben #Love #Rest

under florescents, the cigarette butts are like confe… glittering the sidewalk, with anxiety.

Stumbling over words, Like a child stumbles over shoe la… Left undone. Every word I want to say, Left undone.

It feels much less like a kick in… but a slap in the face, I would say ‘fuck it’, but it wouldn’t adequately represe… that was lacked in,

I’m always enamored with, Short periods of time, With fantasies of, Your hand in mine.

I can’t say I know, The bed where you lay, The shape, color, and patterns, That makes up your day, I can only say now,

No implications, Did I notice at the time, Only the key strokes.

You never loved me, Only the taste of my name, As it lingered on your slithering… Falling out, dripping, With poisons of promises,

Whenever I’m alone, I stay smiling, Counting the stitches sewn, On 100 thread count sheets, Wishing for rain,

‘I’ am the lifeless infinite. ‘I’ am the sun, perforating throug… ‘I’ am a strawberry moon. But what is I?

Tried to meditate, too many different people, are inside my head.

Carefully and slowly, I unfold myself from inside, Dark and lowly, I swallow my pride, I let her out,

The warmth of my tea, How lovely at six a.m. Oh! The little things.

Despite the rips in between the se… I can’t escape my bones, I can’t fight the dreams, So I wait but, I can’t manage to speak,

I feel like I could vomit tears, But that wouldn’t suffice, For amount of years together, Exactly twice, I have no idea...

“You’re trapped.” He explains, My body is bare, I’m losing time, And losing air.