Approval
Piercing silence among my soul like a thousand swords running through the flesh of my being
Fileting each member of my body and leaving it to rot with the dying sorrow of my heart
I was not built to survive this tomorrow but I must linger in the darkness for today it is not my time
But I will dwell on the pain I cause to myself and the pain that I have caused other.
Not sure how I got to this point of distant love and loneliness but I search for the answer in me
How do I stand and say I am a man, what kind of example have I left for her to follow
It is all yet to be determined and how I leave my legacy should be the story that she tells
I want to stand among the highest of idols and raise my hand as I have achieved her approval.
But what if she sees me as a walk away Joe and not as the father she thought she had
Why do I feel so dark and like I am in a hole that is too deep to dig my way out of
How do I go from here and pretend, or do I go from here and leap. it is left up to fate
But I struggle to find which answer is the one that I am supposed to do.
