So the day I wrote this I was very depressed. I showed this to one of my friends and this is what they said:
"But if you die you won't be able to marry Kass and have a good life with her and grow old and be cute old ladies! It sucks right now but look at what can happen in the future. Keep working for the days when you'll be happy. You have a lot of years to live still give it a chance yo."