angry rant
I was ever such a happy girl but not everything is what it seems,
the smile hides tears and pain unresolved only remembered in dreams,
darkness consumed her long ago it took away her soul,
it took away her ability to feel anything leaving only anger to fill up a hole.
a hole where my heart used to be,
but its long gone then suddenly,
the hurt and pain that laid me low,
changed to rage and changed me so.
so much for daddy’s little girl,
so damned nice it makes me hurl,
years of bullshit and years of flack,
but look out daddy coz now I’m back.
back and now I’m really pissed,
out for revenge guess who’s topping the list,
for your life time of sins you have to pay,
silent for decades now its time for my say.
say all that’s inside me, and all that I’ve seen,
everything that I’ve stored up since I was a teen,
coz I’m all grown up and a mother of two,
and so very much stronger and not frightened of you.
you nearly won and had me like you,
but I bounced back just as I always do,
you think you have it all and incredible luck,
and that I’m jealous of you when I don’t give a Fuck.
Fuck all is all you did for me,
and its only now that you’re starting to see,
four wives you’ve had and each of them fled,
and your grankids don’t know you, you’re effectively dead.
dead in our hearts, and dead in our mind,
your kids have moved on and left you behind,
so go live your life quietly and don’t cause any fuss,
coz we want no contact, no calls you’re nothing to us.
us as in your kids, they’re doing suprisingly well,
coz without your presence they’ve been spared hell,
its only the oldest two you left in a mess,
but we’re long over the bullshit dad and couldn’t care any less.
(2005)
