The madness of NFT
fucked up kid of messed up parents,
dealing with lots of emotional stuff,
like not being male, and bad, scary things,
and never being good enough.
dealing with their baggage as well as my own,
so numb I felt like I was barely there,
dealing with my fathers breakdowns,
by ten I knew that life isn’t fair.
always trying to switch off my brain,
coz I’ve grown up with things no child should see,
would rather be pissed, drugged up or unconscious,
coz its too hard to deal with reality.
years flying past me and I’m still hiding,
not sure if I’ll ever find my way out,
terrified family nagging me daily,
another headache I could do without.
messed up kids of fucked up mother,
seeing things that shud never be seen,
another generation left to suffer,
until I find the strength to get myself clean.
(2009)
