I died on Tuesday. My soul floated up Above my milky corpse, And I smiled. I saw my family,

There’s so much blood in blood cou… As there are stones in my heart When I hear your name. The winged-pig can fly daily Once I’ve let myself remember

Last night, all I saw was Nancy. The way she cried when I held her… Like a fleshy cradle Around her broken heart. I saw her loving me

The wind Loves To boast of Fickle love, But my

I’m falling apart beneath my smile… I grapple blindly for a rope To save myself from rising waters. I come up, lungs full of despair, And my parents cover my mouth

The grass was dewy. You carried me on your back. I could feel your heartbeat Through your shirt. I wanted you to be mine,

If I should die before I wake, don’t cry, For that was what I always wanted…

I had no right To fall in love with you. All those times I promised you That I’d never fall in love again Were lies because I fell in love…

You ruined me. How could you? You’re my mother. You were supposed to be strong. Not me.

I can’t cease to think about him. His bitter way only warms my heart… He frightens me and excites me. He always heightens my senses. He makes my heart hurt.

While I’m alone, He’s with her. While I’m crying, He’s kissing And rolling

It’s over. It’s okay. The parting is such sorrow And relief. It hurts like a crushing force,

I feel so lonely. I want to die. Feeling like the only one on earth… My laughter is a lie. Laugh on, laugh on.

With him, It’s like there were no scars. There are no sheepish looks No burning shame. There was no John