I cannot bring myself to cry. I can’t decide if this is a curse Or a blessing.

You’re bleeding down my legs, Tangling me up in your fingers. I want to run my nails down your b… And sigh in your ear.

Like Augustus, I fear oblivion When I should pass.

My mom hates her life, And I’m too much to juggle, And my dad doesn’t support my mom, And my brother’s never home, And my medicine doesn’t work,

I don’t understand. I don’t understand the cruelty The darkness The fear This choking feeling.

Can you hear it? It is the cry of the poor. Their howling curls inside of my h… It pains me as if I were one of t… But, I am.

There is no real romance like fore… There is no time or room to breath… But just the beating of their hear… Traps you. Like a rabbit hopelessly ensnared,

Never give up on love, Though I’ve died a thousand times Just waiting. And I’ve hoped in the rain. So many times

Listening to you sleep, I’m in grace. Each breath a prayer. Every rustle a litany. You don’t know how loud you are

I forget how to love When I’m gritting my teeth Because I’m a fucking hole/ Nothing’s coming out of my mouth n… Because I don’t love my mom,

How can somebody Who loves to explore Be so afraid to leave?

If flowers could cry, Would the water out-spilled Also drown them Like a sloshing grave of Wet mud?

Sam said, “Get over it.” As if I could Just climb a tree. Sam said,

It’s so quiet. I feel soft. The winter hurts, So I burrow inside, But I forget how to

I woke at 3 a.m., And I was scared. I thought I’d never be tired agai… But then I remembered the morning And all the joy it brings.