I often cajole myself Into crying, But I refrain. I know I’ll never stop.

It’s over. It’s okay. The parting is such sorrow And relief. It hurts like a crushing force,

Your love Was like driving straight into the… Your attention was like Lying in a puddle of gold. You were sex and fun and cotton ca…

I’m falling apart beneath my smile… I grapple blindly for a rope To save myself from rising waters. I come up, lungs full of despair, And my parents cover my mouth

But I’m still a kid Only don’t tell my dad that. He’ll say, no, you’re not a kid And you haven’t been a kid in a lo… I guess that when I cry,

Listening to you sleep, I’m in grace. Each breath a prayer. Every rustle a litany. You don’t know how loud you are

How can somebody Who loves to explore Be so afraid to leave?

Never give up on love, Though I’ve died a thousand times Just waiting. And I’ve hoped in the rain. So many times

I am a plummeting plane. I see the clouds go past, And I close my eyes, sometimes, But I still feel where I’m going. Sometimes, I feel that

Then he said, “I never said I was… Then I said, “I never asked you t… Then we kissed.

Nobody can see the darkness in me, And when I go deep, I bring a flashlight to slash thro… The dark. I once used to frolic in light,

That red ribbon is so wrinkled. Rouge like blood Or rushing anger Or a blaring stop sign. It’s crumpled:

I sing of a new carol Which starts silly giggles As a speeding blue carriage Runs merrily through the dark.

I find no release. I die. I die, Yet I’m not free. Not 'til I die.

Nobody wishes so Such as me To die quickly Or be mauled in Such a manner that