For you.
(2014)
There is no more pain, No more grief, Anger, Depression, Anxiety;
A lifetime given, To a life now taken. A love now silenced, Will be forever deafening.
Staying afloat, I’m ripped down again. Into the deepest abyss. With notice
The love, The hatred, Going in circles. Like a train on set tracks, Around and around.
48 years of beautiful life, ended. 23 years of knowing you, ended. 13 years of caring for you,
Cowardice. Seeking comfort from chemicals. Not facing what I ought to face, Terrified. “..I was blind, but now I see..”
Learning to swim Uncharted waters; The walls. Barriers, Built over years.
The words spoken By them. Knowingly sly and spiteful. So cold. So calculated.
Venturing into the unknown. The mind stops, terrified. Yet; the heart pushes forward, ever curious and hopeful.
When you left, Your voice was always there. In the house, On the street. Everywhere.
Emptiness. A void in his very being He tries to fill. Drugs, sex,
Just a simple thank you. Thank you for guiding me. For always being there, waiting. Greeting me.
Take this. This gift. An escape. Ever silent, Ever painless.
Dull, Worn, Scratched, And torn. An antique soul,
Watching the world. Paper, Plastic, Celebrity, Religion.