Uncertain Path
“I who am truly no one assured in God, rather a man endangered before God, a man wrestling ever a new for Gods light, engulfed in Gods abysses” (Martin Buber)
Uncertain Path
This uncertain thing for which I crave, this embodiment of love to reassure
through life’s long journey, this belief that must be certain, but is never so, how then can I reach my goal? How, without that love and knowing can my steps be made?
My journey though is set, as sure as is my life, but I know not when it will end, I know not the direction it will take, and so I must ‘believe’ and in hope that I am right, that the books of old are not just stories, told to keep me on the paths, else fall into that abyss.
That in my belief I am endangered, does indeed teach forbearance, for without this what should I do? What else is there to think? Would without this, my next step make me sink, no matter where I stood I would be upon the brink, and so I strive towards that light.
That light I seek which if there, and found, will be the reason that I now here stand, for without this purpose what is left? Can I accept this reality in which I am? For what is real? Can this be just a moment in a dark eternity? If so, then what should I invent?
(2006)
Note: A close friend brought my attention to the ‘Buber’ quote shown above, and in response I wrote these lines in which I struggle to accept the standard ‘belief’ and the path that we ‘should’ travel along, but along it I have to go. I was in a state of deep loss and grief when I wrote these lines, but would I moderate them now (May 2011) I’m not sure!....................
