Beloved, dont you see?~
“Can we stay like this a little longer?”
this is what earnestly led to it all
A simple question. A courageous call.
You asked me then. Can i ask you now?
Can we stay like this a little longer?
Can we continue to be
In spite of whatever it may seem?
Could we be apart,
Yet flow down the same stream?
Can i push you away, and still call you mine?
Can i walk away, and keep looking back?
Could we be over, yet call each night?
Can this be reality? A fading temporality?
I feel lost. Unfaithful. Ungrateful.
My sincerity, a lost cause.
What promises are upheld?
These lingering thoughts that unfold.
A struggle, this living mess.
A step ahead, ten in reverse I guess.
This amicable ending,
a delusional befriending.
A liar, beneath it all.
How could i ever at all?!
Too diplomatic for me.
Chess is not a game for me.
This hopeless romanticism,
Will leave me dejected, stranded.
Still staring back, with a hint of scepticism.
For I’ll still be convinced, naive. Dumbfounded.
Thinking, that if i take on this chance–
Pour my honest heart out. Bare–
And put it in your hands. For a second there–
Before you leave me once again.
I know there’ll be a glance–
And in that second of it all–
I know you too will wish for me to stay!
And i’ll take that victory, for me to say..
That I’ll walk away, even though you want me to stay.
Climb aboard my mount of pride!
Act strong and agile, and run away to hide!
The temporal strength through them seconds of agony!
Oh i’ll take a jump and flee in my misery!
Close your doors, and walk away.
I’m a lurking leech, go set yourself free!
there’s only broken shards,
and unkept promises down my street.
delusional dreams, a few cozy eves,
the rest a web i weave–
Leave. walk away. Flee, set yourself free.
This limbo of mine,
is not meant for faint hearted lovers
Oh my beloved, dont you see?~
