Once again -
I am once again, precisely there–
Where i once was, once before.
In love with another man, fated for another.
At this point my heart breaks, into finer shatters.
For in who i am, i crave love.
To be loved, to give love.
But for this life of mine,
That hopelessly seems to revolve around love–
I’m giving up. I am tired.
I cannot let love dictate my life in circles,
For clearly my heart and brain simply dont coordinate.
And i am too fragile, to be exiled to life without love.
Nor am i as lost in the materialism of this life, that it would suffice my thirst.
Oh dear, what do i do that entangles me from this hopeless loop..
So that my life doesnt revolve around a lover, but love.
What is the safest next best thing to throw myself into?
If only i could detach my self from my this sociotropy–
this madness of wanting to love, and to be loved!
