I Understand
This doesn't go in to anywhere near as much depth as it did when I first wrote it, but it was so long that I don't think anyone would have read the whole thing so here is more or less what I had but in a more digestible size.
I understand now why you left,
How was I was so unkind?
I know you felt neglected,
But to this I was blind.
I understand you wanted more,
Not much, just a newfound spark,
I had become an idle bore,
Reluctant to embark.
I understand you tried your hardest,
It must have worn you down,
All you craved was to be noticed,
Waiting to be found.
I understand you needed me,
To show you some affection,
I did, but I was distant,
Nothing more than a reflection.
I understand I was the inducer of our demise,
The kindle of the scorching flames of tears in our eyes,
The origin of agony,
The genesis of pain,
The element of misery,
The principle of strain.
I was the creator of all that is bad,
For I failed to realise just what I had,
I wish I had held you when I had the chance,
I should have said yes when you asked me to dance.
I never did kiss you as much as I should,
I should have just done it whenever I could,
Walk over and kiss you wherever you stood,
If we tried again then I promise I would.
But I know it’s over, we couldn’t withstand,
I should have been more exciting and less bland,
I should have been more attentive in your hand,
But wasn’t, I just let you sink in the sand.
Before, I knew not why we had to disband,
And although it’s too late now, I understand.
(2013)
