Why Can’t I Cry?
I can’t cry, I just can’t cry,
Not even when my loved ones die,
Not when I’m drunk, not when I’m high,
There’s but a tear in my eye.
I think I’m broken, nothing new,
And for this I cannot blame you,
Because I was already like this,
You just taught me how to fight this.
Now you’re gone I have no fight,
I have no vigour, have no flight,
Even so I wonder why,
I wonder why I just can’t cry.
It’s not because I lack emotion,
Inside me is an explosion,
Feelings deeper than the ocean,
On the outside, not a notion.
Floodgates locked behind my eyes,
My tears tower to the skies,
They reach the dam and then they cease,
Incarcerating my relief.
I need an outlet it would seem,
My tears are a boiling stream,
When they can’t pass they turn to steam,
The pressure inside makes me scream.
All my pain converts to anger,
Now I’m just a jealous wanker,
Jealously is self-inflicted,
Which just makes it more constricted.
All I want to do is cry,
As if I don’t, I’ll surely die,
Oh why, oh why, oh why, oh why,
Why can my broken self not cry?
