To Hate You Would Be Easy
From the start you told me this could never work
Given the circumstances
But for the first time in my life I was in love
So I took my chances
I thought I knew what love was
What it meant
I thought I knew what it was like to give love
Or to have it sent
Until I met you I did not have a clue
Not the slightest idea
The feelings I developed for you were so new
So clear
You only realise you have never been in love before
When you fall in love
When for the first time in your life each butterfly in your stomach
Is the size of a dove
Then you start to see the world from a different perspective
You become more perceptive
More subjective
More connective with the ability to effectively be protective
Toward the one you love
Toward you
I never knew it was possible to care so much
Yet I do
I would never give up everything for just one person
But I would for you
To never have been in love inevitably means
A heart never broken
A heart never broken is likely to mean
You leave it open
To heedlessly open your heart to the one you love
Oblivious to potential repercussions
Means when you get hit you get hit hard
Regardless of the many discussions
Discussions in which you made perfectly clear
That we would not work
That no matter how long we could stay together
Our problems would lurk
I chose not to believe it was true
How could it be
For the first time in my life I was
Truly happy
I hate that there is no reason to hate you
Because hate
Hate is an emotion I can handle
I can take
What I feel now is alien to me
I feel cold
I feel like life no longer has a purpose
To uphold
I feel like I let you down
I drew you in
I tried to make you love me
It was a sin
I knew the longer I dragged it out
The harder it would be
I guess I just thought if I did it for long enough
You would want to stay with me
I will always love you
I will always be there for you
I will always support you
I will still always care for you
To hate you would be easy
To love you not so much
But I still love that I love you
Something hate could never touch
(2013)
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