Monsters
This is a poem about my battle with anxiety and how I wish others would aid in that fight.
These monsters inside my head
Much worse than whats under my bed
They don’t want to do me any harm
Just set off a million false alarms
Things that just aren’t reality
Things I don’t feel, that are not me
But they make me think that i should fear
They cloud my mind and make things unclear
Tell me that I am not worthy, that i should run
Because I am unlovable and it’ll come undone
They make my heart pound out of my chest
Fighting against me when I try my best
You didnt ask for this when I cry
But you forget that neither did I
They tell me I am not wanted and to go
That people leaving is all I know
I don’t want to cause pain and confusion
I dont want to live inside a delusion
I want to be happy and live carefree
Without these monsters inside of me
I want to be loved and told it’s okay
That we will live to fight another day
That I am worth it and not worthless
To know that I do have a purpose
I want to know you wont let me go
I don’t get why that’s so hard to show
Hug me and say you love me
That you see what others don’t see
Hold me and don’t let me break
Tell me that I am not a mistake
Remind me that I am strong
And beside you is where I belong
That you wont give up or run away
Even when I want to you’ll make me stay
Because the monsters in my head aren’t real
That you know what it is that I really feel
And you wont let me run away to hide
But instead help me battle the monsters inside
Help me figure out what is real
And love my broken heart so it can heal
