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Feeling like my life isn't where it ought to be. Feeling like I've lost a piece of me, the essence of who I am & trying to get back to who I am.
#Aimless
The cold wind blows Enveloping my fears Standing at the precipice Between life & death Vapors transfigure
I Am wind I am fire I am earth I am water The in between
My love haunted My hope hunted All I ever wanted Was to be wanted Waiting for your call
Flirting w/a monster Speaking words so sinister Amber eyes gleaming Until I wail screaming Finger painting in condiments
Yelling for no reason Overreacting because I love you Accusing me of treason I can’t stand you Ignoring me
I wished upon a star And here you are Standing right in front of me Like kismet Writing words with little meaning
Maybe we’re wasting time Pretending to be fine Not addressing the strain We inflicted on our brains Naming names
Knowing how to feel What more is there to know? Knowing how to entertain What must I do to ascertain The feeble heart?
Crying over you In my dreams Chasing you Through countless streams Traveling from state to state
Asking if I’ll be ok While the music Continues to play Crying in the dark Somehow we lost
Chasing shadows In summer meadows Lingering by the wayside Watching memories of you die Fighting worry
Grasping at pipe dreams Something good Is never what it seems Riding a wave of discontent The sting of doubt unrelenting
Upset I can’t control The outset Jealous Carefully meandering
Killing questions with shade Sipping cool-aid under palm trees Watching haters burn & fade Into the sea Dancing stupid under flashing ligh…
Head burning Heart yearning Brain churning Feet running Into the unknown