(20150915)
Self Determination It’s never free There is always a cost Self determination Requires
The million incandescent bulbs that line Gibbs St from Barrett Place to Main go out just after midnight. Stragg… smokers sit or stand in the alley
One more meeting Just one more Rendezvous And the courage To speak up
Youth is wasted Proving you are a man Seniority is wasted Lementing lost youth
She was never mine I was never her’s Neither loved as a possession Both possessed By the love we shared
I never told you a lie I was honest from the start You knew about my wife You knew who I was You accepted the facts
I want to hate you I want to blame you For all the pain In my heart I want to hate you
What are you selling Everybody is That thing that you have That’s icing and fizz Every encounter
Too long trapped Hopeless and caged Owned and enraged I saw a way out Extinguished my apathy
Our love cost you dear It cost you all A price I would have willingly pa… Though that cost Sadly landed on you
I love your grace Always seeing beyond The ruins left In the wake of sin I love your strength
2015-01-12-22-48-02 I’m on to something new Just trying to get over you What in the world am I thinking? Was it really that much?
This is where I am Though I fail to treasure it I am still right here
Today is the last day I am going to do this to myself The last day I will hold on to any hope Today is the last day
Staring down Into my own Oblivion Self destruction Impossible to escape