The Scales that Peeled Away
My hearts a pine cone, and you keep peeling back the layers. Scale by scale until there’s nothing left for you. And when you finally peel back the last scale, my hearts as light as air and floats away in the wind. You’ve successfully lost my heart and made me lose it too. Floating in the wind, I am left with an empty and hollow hole in my chest. Heavy and dark just like who I have become. Not the light happy person who was guarded like my heart. Now I am dark and heavy and the only thing that fills that hole in my chest is the pitch black resentment that you have earned. Somehow my heart returned with all the scales of the pinecone gone leaving a prickly mess behind. I was mistaken when I said that my heart floated away on the wind. It wasn’t my heart, but the scales on my heart. The scales filled with happy and light feelings of love and respect, but they swayed in the breeze and were carried off to some unknown place. My now prickly heart the only thing left. If you could even call it a heart anymore. Like barb wire, you are stung if you touch it. I’m stung if I touch it. Thank you for leaving my barb wired heart to hurt people and push them away. You have done what you wanted all along which was to isolate me from the rest of the world because of you I can never trust anyone with my heart again and I am left with an empty loneliness.
(2013)
