My fingers gliding across the keys In a race to keep up with My wayward thoughts Drifting through me head Things demanding to be out

I don’t know where to start Too much to say So much more to lose I know what I am risking But I don’t have a choice

Memories flood through my head Drowning me once again Days turn to years But the suffering never ends Memories resurfacing

Night has fallen Once again Leaving me alone With my thoughts Their incessant prattle

Stupid Boy I wish you could have seen How much you were loved Maybe if you had known... Things could have been different

Guarantees a long painful death ...

Sympathetic stares linger On my crumbling face As tears attack Streaming down my cheeks Breaking through the depths of my…

As the sun melts into the horizon. The Moon– yawns as it wakes. Sweeping ripples through the gentl… Now a black abyss. As silver jewels come to life

My heart yearns My memory flooding my head Images gloating of funs to be had Displaying first hand reminders The taste

A fluke encounter Letter after letter Turning me inside out Each new exchange Giving me

I don’t want to see. How empty I am on the inside. My heart, shattered. My spirit, broken. My soul, torn.

We wrap ourselves in bubbles The numbness keeping us safe From the pain we hide from Silence filling gaping holes In our hearts as we try to forget

The blank page stares back at me Mocking me with his taunting glare… The hands on the clock ticking - t… chanting, “Failure, failure, failu… My mind is frozen. I’m blank.

You look at me Like I’m some prize on display Pride glimmering in your eyes As you smile encouragingly AND