I Miss You Moore
I’m sorry I lied to myself and consequently hurt you
I’m sorry I thought it was ok because I kept it true about my intentions with you
I never said you’d be mine and never lied about what I wanted to do with you
But we built a bond over time and I knew over time it would ruin you
You know there will be another as soon as I’m through with you
I’m comforted by the fact that I have options
I love this game.
I’m winning.
I’m poppin
And this all started because while I was being a flirt, I fell in love with a woman and my feelings got hurt.
My mom was always there for me so i associated woman with stability
But this one girl let me go and it became too real for me
You may wonder why I mentioned this or how it relates to you
But see that one L is the reason my life is not a safe place for you
See I got good conversation and you can see intelligence is present
I also have a little humor and your excited in my presence
We will hang out often before you let me in because you ain’t no hoe
But once I’m in, you’ll be back.
This is something I just know.
But you didn’t fall in love with the physical that just made the passion stronger
My jokes, my way of thinking, our friendship.
All of that will last much longer.
And you knew I might not marry you so you feel you have no reason to trip
“Aye I’m not looking for no relationship”
I said that off rip.
But I lied to you and I lied to myself.
I want something to call my own and truthfully I know you should be that.
I’m afraid that if I commit we still might split.
Then where would I be at?
I loved texting you. Your replies gave me reassurance.
Your laugh is engrained in my mind.
It came often and was reoccurring.
You gave me corny nicknames and I would clown you.
But deep down I looked forward to hearing it
Every time I was around you
I know you were nervous to talk about the future with me
But deep down I was curious what our future would be
I know your friends and I remember that you don’t trust Katie
Me and you might not be together anymore but I still don’t trust Katie
Your mom used to smile when I came over
I know occasionally she still mentions me
I know you get in your feelings at times
Because she still mentions we
My favorite artist is still making hits
When you hear him you reminisce
I know you smile and then you cry
I hate that I’m the reason why
Now I feel like I’m not shit
Jumping through constant situationships
Dealing with women who not my style
Knowing better all the while
See I’m worse than the men they warn you about.
They lie to get women so at least you have the satisfaction of saying “I didn’t know ”
But see I presented you with thought provoking conversation, honesty and fun nights.
I kept it true so you knew how this would go.
But I still miss you.
I don’t hit you up because I know you deserve better.
But I still miss you.
I remember it all but you can make better memories
But I still miss you.
I hope you wait for me but I know you shouldn’t have to.
But I still miss you
I’m sorry I lied to myself and said its ok because I’m not lying.
I’m sorry I hurt you.
I promise you ain’t the only one crying.
I still miss you girl
(2015)
