My musical song of me not knowing
Was it love at my feet burning,
adoring a man in my door,
the abscence of my father made me mourn,
Will I run to or from him through fear.
I begin to loose as I melt.
Dad! my brother! I’m still hoping,
Dead my spirit is,
If you crush me I will break like a sand scattered in ocean.
I doubt and panick for not being sure,
Do I hate or envy men?
I get the creeps crawling for sometime,
For a while I turn and admire men.
Something known but new to me,
Your frame structure sculptured all together,
Your hands as big to hug my whole figure,
Your cheek bones and hard muscles,
A smile so clean with lines and eyes that clears my fear.
Men are dogs I am told,
men don’t feel I am shown,
Not intuitive and bold they seem,
To me I eye different,
If he doesnt feel why so much anger
If he doesn’t care why keep on coming through for her,
If he doesn’t think why keep on asking questions,
If they don’t cry why do they laugh,
So I never knew the lyrics of what made a man
Conflicted by men in my life
Is it that I got love in my heart.
(2015)
