For Allie
The warmth of my tea, How lovely at six a.m. Oh! The little things.
You collect calluses, Like precious gems, Revering their form, Keeping them close, And if it wasn’t for me,
I can’t say I know, The bed where you lay, The shape, color, and patterns, That makes up your day, I can only say now,
‘We’re the same’, Teetering on edges of lines, I ca… And you say again ‘we are the same… Conflating words, Of an honest one,
It feels much less like a kick in… but a slap in the face, I would say ‘fuck it’, but it wouldn’t adequately represe… that was lacked in,
You never loved me, Only the taste of my name, As it lingered on your slithering… Falling out, dripping, With poisons of promises,
Can I just have slow sex, Long talks, Lengthy poems, And everyday walks, Can I have running through the wo…
‘I’ am the lifeless infinite. ‘I’ am the sun, perforating throug… ‘I’ am a strawberry moon. But what is I?
I’m always enamored with, Short periods of time, With fantasies of, Your hand in mine.
Carefully and slowly, I unfold myself from inside, Dark and lowly, I swallow my pride, I let her out,
Tried to meditate, too many different people, are inside my head.
Whenever I’m alone, I stay smiling, Counting the stitches sewn, On 100 thread count sheets, Wishing for rain,
“You’re trapped.” He explains, My body is bare, I’m losing time, And losing air.
Stumbling over words, Like a child stumbles over shoe la… Left undone. Every word I want to say, Left undone.
Last Night. Was the first night I had a thous… Perforating with tender thoughts i… Last Night. Was the the first night, in my lif…