Let my joy be a promise To my future self Who is so beautiful Even if she isn’t pretty.

Like Augustus, I fear oblivion When I should pass.

I dislike nothing more than Philosophy. How lazy.

I’m falling apart beneath my smile… I grapple blindly for a rope To save myself from rising waters. I come up, lungs full of despair, And my parents cover my mouth

You’re bleeding down my legs, Tangling me up in your fingers. I want to run my nails down your b… And sigh in your ear.

While you were gone, My childhood dog died. I wept for both of you, And I felt like a corpse. While you were gone,

I cried out to God, And There was silence.

There’s always a morning, But there’s the night, too. Every faith has a savior, But the devil always follows suit. There will be spring,

That red ribbon is so wrinkled. Rouge like blood Or rushing anger Or a blaring stop sign. It’s crumpled:

Love is the sickness. Love is the cure.

You were the devil. I knew it before you did; And I was St. Mary With clouds trailing behind me. I gave you my virtue

Splattered you All over my body And flecks of skin Inside every crevice. I can’t get rid of you

Mom, I miss you, And I’m miserable. I miss grandma, And I’m so lonely. I miss being a kid.

My mother is the darkness inside m… She planted the seed That grew into brambles, And now, I can’t be loud Because she makes me so