I forget how to love When I’m gritting my teeth Because I’m a fucking hole/ Nothing’s coming out of my mouth n… Because I don’t love my mom,

That red ribbon is so wrinkled. Rouge like blood Or rushing anger Or a blaring stop sign. It’s crumpled:

Sam said, “Get over it.” As if I could Just climb a tree. Sam said,

Perfection is an evil reflection On what is really real. Solitude is my gratitude When I am sad. Numbness equals oneness

There’s always a morning, But there’s the night, too. Every faith has a savior, But the devil always follows suit. There will be spring,

In my house, You don’t ask questions. The whispers from mom and dad Signal you to a hiding place. In my house,

If you’re happy, then I’m happy. I’ll be ok if you’re ok. I can’t die without you living. I won’t move on without you search… At night, do you think about me?

I don’t understand. I don’t understand the cruelty The darkness The fear This choking feeling.

The wind Loves To boast of Fickle love, But my

So stealthily I lead: Touching green, Seeing rocks below me. I’m gulping pride Because I know life is

I came back from a mortal hell, But on my way home, I saw no white god, And I saw no golden spirit, And I saw no true son.

I ran from you all my life. I’ve had problems, But that doesn’t make it right.

I cannot bring myself to cry. I can’t decide if this is a curse Or a blessing.

I’m silently screaming Alone in the bathroom. The tears of a sinner Won’t let my fears go. I’m suddenly drowning.