Emptiness. A void in his very being He tries to fill. Drugs, sex,
When you left, Your voice was always there. In the house, On the street. Everywhere.
Just a simple thank you. Thank you for guiding me. For always being there, waiting. Greeting me.
The peace you brought, It was misleading. Unknowingly, You sneak up, With your hypnotic dance.
Learning to swim Uncharted waters; The walls. Barriers, Built over years.
Staying afloat, I’m ripped down again. Into the deepest abyss. With notice
48 years of beautiful life, ended. 23 years of knowing you, ended. 13 years of caring for you,
Watching the world. Paper, Plastic, Celebrity, Religion.
The words spoken By them. Knowingly sly and spiteful. So cold. So calculated.
There is no more pain, No more grief, Anger, Depression, Anxiety;
Take this. This gift. An escape. Ever silent, Ever painless.
Cowardice. Seeking comfort from chemicals. Not facing what I ought to face, Terrified. “..I was blind, but now I see..”
A lifetime given, To a life now taken. A love now silenced, Will be forever deafening.
Dull, Worn, Scratched, And torn. An antique soul,
Venturing into the unknown. The mind stops, terrified. Yet; the heart pushes forward, ever curious and hopeful.