So I’m out back in my lil caddy shack as this rain continues to drop from the clouds up top, as the light from the moon reflects it thru every little drop,

Im tryin to closely payattention even my eyes are starting stand out of tension while I’m trying so desperately to look out this old blurry wett window paine, an wondering why things werent still the same, an wishing time didnt have to go an  change,

Its no ones fault but my own, I don’t dare to blame the ones who point at mee for my regrettable shame, It Is i who should take blame for the reasons im sitting here going insane.

Its getting harder & harder for me to even start to complain, Why lie they all  can see thru these shades of shame that are surrounding me.

These gusts of wind hitting the outter berim of this room I’m in,  while im trying to find my last whim, an with these drops of rain continuously are soaking these flower beds of shame that I’ve made, they so desperately retaining the water that was recently drained.

Im tryin to figure away out to unblock this block that has recently locked up the creative side of my awesomely inspirational brain of mine, So while I keep on trying to move this pen in between these two lose pieces of skin I can feel the bones within start to shake hopeing no to make a mistake, watching my ink dip through the stainless steel tip of my pen, with every bit of the ink rushing out of the top as it reaches pages below suddenly fills every inch with just one drop, with ink that dosen’t run or stain one spot,

Suddenly im overwhelmed with all these inspirational thoughts in this head.bas my mind exlpodes, it over flows with words I that can’t fathom, they seem to have a consistent flow, these words I barely even know or can  comparhend this time I can’t fake or pretend.

Strainin this one of a kind brain again giving me a complex within, rushin away to relax, do I even think to take a chance to react, to these intensively strong electrical respectives going on in my chemistrys brain wave map, I cant afford to take anynmore irresponsible miscellaneous steps back.

I must break through this walls they need to finally give way an fall. So I can be done with this damaging Drug Dealin Addiction Act  all its doing is  eating away at my soft tissues on the inside this brain, its causeing me such horrible damnational pain, as it already is killing away what’s left my once full soul
So I gotta be the bigger man an step up out an away, So finally my son will have a safe home to come to on day............

Written by peoticromeo aka.. ROMAN F PECK 05/07/2015 3:39 PM