these lonely nights
As I try to lay here I have no luck, I’m shivering away as I just try to cover up all alone in this old broke down home wishing I had a place call my own, I can feel the cold wintery breeze as it briskly sweeps across my skin it slowly penetrates straight to my bones.Making my fingers so numb I can’t hold my phone, As I closely look out the bed room dood I see Shadow’s slowly creeping up on the walls through the windows in the halls, Sinking deeper into the dark night fall most of all I find myself slowly fading away as I continue to softly whisper and say please help me fight and keep the demons astray, hopefully the angels i asked for are out trying to find me a way back to you one day, So I can see your little heart warming smile.As the night slowly dirfts on and the Starlights lift away, I can feel the morning dew on my cold white chapped lips, the chrisp better flavor arises from the mist, I can feel my heartbeat finally coming through my chest once again it’s going to be so I’ve lost another nights rest, due to all this intense high stress the emotionless efforts I tried to hide but its not my best keeping them at bay is not enough as I sit here and struggle to keep a hold of my personal stuff to the people I’m not able to trust and as the Morning Sun comes up from dusk returning the beautiful colors from the ugly shade of rust I’m forced to sit here and say a small prayer for my little man hopefully that life will be so kind and fairfor him pleasant tip of my pen slowly runs dry I’m telling myself not to cry hoping for more days with him just before it’s my time to die
(2015)
