I'll Be Your Lighthouse
I don’t feel worthy of being loved the way I dream of being loved
I’m not worthy of that
I don’t deserve the company of a bright soul
Because I’m tainted
I’m filthy
My soul is dim
Faith isn’t fair
Fair isn’t the fairest of all
Faint of heart
Is the painted mark
Upon our covered eyes
Behind these eyes
There is no spark
Behind these eyes
Are darkened skies
Maybe
Maybe not
My soul is spent upon what can’t be bought
Chained to the vows of unseen depth
Repress
Regress
Repent
Repeat
Ancient actions
Seem so alive
In the night sky
Where the gods of the stars
Fight their wars
To keep humanity safe
A dull ache
Beckons us onward
So we march forward
With sprained ankles
And broken tendons
Leaping forward
Into dreary waters
Slipping forth
Into thoughtless daughters
The draft is cold against our bare and broken skin
Even more chilling than what lies within
Deepen pores
Sore eyes
Leaking salt
From darkened skies
Wilting without the light
The sun provides
How can we grow
When all we do is die
Fade
In a creeping eternity
Faith in the uncertainty
Faint at the possibility
Save me the humility
Maybe
Maybe not
My soul is spent upon what can’t be bought
Chained to the vows of unseen depth
Repress
Regress
Repent
Repeat
Ancient actions
Seem so alive
In the night sky
Where the gods of the stars
Fight their wars
To keep humanity safe
A dull ache
Beckons us onward
So we march forward
With sprained ankles
And broken tendons
Bring forth the horizons
Place it upon the palm of my hands
Body language is critical
Words are commands
Darker in sunset
Than lighter is rise
If the body is tainted
Is it something to despise
Lies
I tell you
Lies
We mercilessly
Quietly
Gently
Thumb through pages
Full of dust and debris
Learning what we must
So we can see
So we can open our eyes
And truly believe
Bring forth my burdens
Bring forth my share
It’s one that I’ve bought
It’s one that I care
I believe not yet
I believe in love
And what must come
Can’t be undone
Existence itself is meaningless
And yet it’s so profound
Life of love is purpose
Love of life is sound
Maybe
Maybe not
My soul is spent upon what can’t be bought
Chained to the vows of unseen depth
Repress
Regress
Repent
Repeat
Ancient actions
Seem so alive
In the night sky
Where the gods of the stars
Fight their wars
To keep humanity safe
A dull ache
Beckons us onward
So we march forward
With sprained ankles
And broken tendons
Bring forth the horizon
Place it upon my bloody hands
As colors leak in between
My body falls forward becoming traces of sand
I am no longer plagued
Plated stone
The burdens were too much for me
Pressure upon stone
Turns stone to sand
Pressure upon sand
Turns sand to diamonds
So now I can really shine
Through these darkened skies
I’ll be your lighthouse
A shinning savior I’ll be
If you keep my light
Safe and shinning
