I Need You (Still, all these years later)
Part 2
Forever at the very forefront of my mind,
I even see you in my dreams from time to time.
It’s been 12 years since we first met, I can’t believe it’s been so long,
And still I think about you all the time, although I know it’s wrong.
From time to time we still associate with one another,
Each time we rekindle I feel I’ve found my long lost brother.
Day 1 you make me feel euphoric and untouchable,
Although at night I find I really don’t sleep much at all.
Day 2 I’m tired but still wired so long as you’re with me,
I require, no, desire, more of you to lift me.
Day 3 you still give energy to me but at a cost,
Still by my side but the initial confidence is lost.
Day 4 I need you more and more just so that I feel normal,
No longer reunited friends, it’s strictly business; formal.
Days 5 and onwards up until you once again depart,
Exasperation dominates the forefront of my heart.
You never stay the full month even though that’s what we plan,
You always leave me hanging and it’s just because you can,
I always get the blame because I take all of your time,
Or is it that I take too much of you yet still the blame is mine?
Day 1 upon your leaving I find I’m already grieving,
Although within me you still resonate I feel you leaving.
Day 2 without you and I really start to feel the strain,
Inside and outside I can start to really feel the pain.
Day 3 still only me and things are getting worse,
Lifeless as a passenger who’s riding in a hearse.
Day 4 and even more I feel inadequate,
I’m down but also numb and never passionate.
Day 5 I may survive if I can soldier on,
It’s hard to come back when you think your soul is gone.
Day 6 I try to fix my physical depletion,
Appetite returns almost to the point of repletion.
Day 7 feel like heaven; clarity’s returning,
Emotions run from something cold to something burning.
Days 8 and onwards and I’m almost feeling ordinary,
Not necessarily bad, but not extraordinary.
Days turn to weeks and often months as I proceed without you,
Yet not an hour passes that I don’t still think about you,
I wish, or maybe yearn, our paths will cross again,
Bad as you are for me I still consider you my friend.
I first wrote "I Need You" in late 2013, first entitled "Tramadol" but I didn't want to give everything away in the title. This is simply a remake of the first with an additional 10 years of emotions mixed in.
