Regret
On my mind like fucking crazy,
Not able to sleep much lately,
I just think about you daily,
I hate that you’re not my lady.
Feeling jealous beyond reason,
Every other man is treason,
You’re so aesthetically pleasing,
All the guys you end up teasing.
But it’s so much more than that,
It’s not just that I want you back,
It’s not just that I really miss you,
Not just that I want to kiss you.
You are still my everything,
My heart and soul, you make them sing,
I hate myself for walking out,
I always will, I have no doubt.
I don’t expect you to forgive me,
Even so, the joy you give me,
Just by letting me still see you,
Makes me cherish all we’ve been through.
Just know that I’ll always love you,
Never put a thing above you,
Never think the grass is greener,
That was such a misdemeanour.
You have every right to hate me,
Yet I wish that you would date me,
Talk about wanting the world,
My world is you, you are my girl.
Only you’re not, I keep forgetting,
Like an endless nightmare setting,
Every single time I wake,
It hits me once again, I break.
I shake, I tremble, start to crumble,
Never have I felt so humbled,
Never have I felt so low,
I have myself to blame I know.
I don’t deserve you, never did,
But no one does, no joke, no kid,
I don’t know where we’ll end up yet,
But walking out’s my worst regret.
