(2008)
#Woman
Lingering thoughts Sometimes overwhelm me I can’t even seem to Close my eyes Without seeing you
It’s funny How I let my guard down Just ironically Periodically I contradict myself
Even when I wanted to run Straight for the hills I stayed here Taking my pills Pretending there are birds
I still want everything To be perfect When nothing Can be perfect I keep wanting things
Drink your stupid drink Until you get sick Laying on cold tiles As dehydrated As you would be
Honey mustard Paint me yellow Paint by numbers Two and three Never the right
You swing on the trapeze With finesse With ease Not even the breeze Sways you
Despite the lies I tell myself I know the truth Will always haunt me Like unsolved murders I lay awake thinking
Squeeze me tighter than tight Quietly seeking shelter Unlike the many nights I dreamed.… Each and every night Ending up the same way
If you could see it in my eyes The subtle refusal Because it might not feel right to… Not at this moment Not at this point in time
It’s hard to explain The sudden change That I feel when the rain Soaks through Only if you knew
How can something so right Be so wrong In so many ways? At the same time? Concurrent sentence
I am guilty Of wanting too much Out of life Of wanting it all Of wanting what I can’t have
If you even knew About me... Everything... As you said you wanted to... You might make assumptions
Sometimes I really wonder What the point is Of socialization I don’t feel comfortable Socializing